Wednesday, April 23, 2008

When I'm lost and it seems the end....

Sometimes I wonder what she really thinks. I guess I'll never know, what I do know is, that I'm so caught up in her there is no going back...

I find myself at a crossroads, there are two paths one of good, that will make me less happy, and one of patience that will make me extremely happy. I can manage either, but I really would rather there be a bad path, where I get instant gratification. Sadly I'm not the type of person who instant gratification works for. Waiting has never been my strong suit, ussually when I have to wait for things I just forget them, until the time comes. 

I just smelled my shirt, and it smells like her.... 'tis gonna be a long night. I think I'd like to go pass out, for a while, just until everything is ok. Ok with me, and her, and him and I can be alone, and live.

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