so its been a while internet...

I guess some people might actually read this, which is strange to me. I never really thought about anyone actually reading my journal now, I thought once I publish  my book and people want to they can go to my blog and like check out who I am and what not. Well I guess micah was able to find out who I am, which isn't a bad thing, but it makes this a lot less secret. oh well, my name is David Wisar, and this is my blog. Enjoy and read at your own risk.
So what is on my mind? Hmmmm this could take a while to figure out. I decided earlier that I have no clue what I want to do with the rest of my life. I know I want to write, although i have no idea what else I would like to do. Maybe something in ministry, or music, it seems like at this poing the sky is litterally the limit. I could never do anything involving areospace and or flying, being colorblind and all, well at least partially, enough to count. With my whole life ahead of me, I do know a few things for certain, like that god is always guiding me, and though I may stumble he will pick me up and continue to guide me. I hope the way will be well lit, because right now, where I am supposed to go, doesnt seem all that exact at all. 

tonight was....

fantastic, i got to be with the woman of my dreams, play monopoly with my best friend for like 2 hours, and I might get to be a small group leader. Which would rock my socks off. Anyways, I just felt like updating blog. How are you the internet? are you well? I have been thinking alot, and somtimes i feel torn, sometimes i feel cheated, but most of the time, i feel completely fine with the fact that i could lose everything. Its not like i havent lost it all before. I've been wondering what makes a family, and what i should write about.

The answer to both came about in an idea i had. I want to call it something like: The Big Book Of Suicides. Or something along those lines, and it will be basically a bunch of stories about people who kill themsleves, or try to. Two parts, first is leading up to the suicide, second will be the aftermath IE: paramedics, who finds them, funerals, hospitals, family reactions, social reactions, school reactions, spousal reactions, basically just a very sad tale, and an example of how it affects all those around you. I know that someone very close to me, suffered from someone commiting suicide, as well as I have. Bloody wrists are pretty much the worst things i have ever seen, and finding somone dying and knowing you dont know how to help, is just about the worst feeling. Anyway, its late and i should go to bed, i just felt like posting.... night Internet.

Oh and my childrens book is gonna be about something cool, like kids who get lost in the forest and have to do something to get out. ok sweet.

night.