Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Faith

What part does faith have in my life? and why does it matter?

Faith is probably the most important part of my life right now and to the day I die. It is where I put my life actually, so faith isn't part of living, but instead living is part of faith. I have found this sort of chasm exists in my life, one that has only been filled quite recently by something good. I've really dealt with a lot of bad things in my life; like my parents divorce, guilt, premarital sex, lustful envy, greed, materialism, idolatry, and most of all pride. I have tried to use girls to fill that lonely spot that I hold in my heart, the chasm that often goes unfilled, but it would never work. The chasm that was left behind by my dad when he was no longer a real part of my life. The chasm that exists from the need to constantly prove myself to the world. Only one thing was lacking from my life and that was God. No girl, father, or satisfaction could ever fill that chasm, because it was all the same chasm. My God died on the cross for me, not only that, but he gave me a place in his kingdom with no expectation of me to be anything than what he made me to be. I do not need to be perfect, just his and that is enough.
It is only through my faith in God that my life is rectified, that I am justified, that I find a peace like no other in the world. It is in prayer that I can ask for anything, learn anything, and know truthfully what is my purpose. Direct communication that was cemented when Jesus died for my sins, the bridge that allows me into God's world; an unworthy sinner turned into a son. If you asked me why my faith is important or how I know that it is truth I would have to respond in a few ways.
Firstly - my faith is the most important thing in the world. It is what keeps me stable when life is unstable and what allows me to rejoice even in my darkest hour. It is sort of like this; Say I have a day where nothing goes right - I get into a car accident, I get a ticket for parking without a pass at school, I get an F on a term paper, and I end up getting scorned by a girl or friend; well normally this day would reduce anyone to tears and I am not exempt, but the difference between my tears and theirs is that while I cry I pray. Once my prayer is done, I know that it will be answered, and my heart soars; I could dance and be happy because the day may be over, but my life is not and I can still be with my God. If you have God in your life, you will never be at want because eventually you realize that he is all you need. Yes, Faith is that powerful; just look at Paul if you don't know who he is, check out all of the letters he wrote in the new testament.
Secondly - I know this is truth; the Gospel is something that is different than anything else ever felt or heard in all of history. In any culture there is the idea of someone dying for someone else and it is regarded as a good act; but there has never been a story like that of Jesus Christ. Jesus is the Son of God, like I am now - the difference is that Without Jesus(who is God) I could not be a Son. He had to be the Son first, and he had to die as the Son to allow me to be like him in the eyes of God. Now consider this; Jesus was blameless and perfect(not like human anyone knows) and he was also God(the king of kings). He preformed miracles and did other acts that showed his true origins, but that wasn't what made his story so amazing; and it isn't what showed his love. God is the King correct? Yes. We are sinners correct? Yes. By the custom of the time that means that we would go to hell because we could not live up to the Laws of God our king? Yes. Then why did God the perfect king choose to come down and save us the lowly criminals of the earth? Because he loved us. Jesus had come to earth and because he was God he upheld the laws laid by God in the old testament making him not a criminal and worthy of the kingdom of God. He had to stand in our place, and die upon the cross so that we, the unworthy sinners; might have a chance to be with God. No king in history has ever stood in the place of a criminal and died so that they might live, and No king could ever set us free spiritually. Jesus did; and that is why I know this is the Truth. Nothing on earth rings truer than this, and nothing on earth has ever had as much of an impact as Jesus did.
What God did showed his love for us, and what Jesus did allowed us to become children of God even though we do not deserve it. It is for this simple fact that I follow Jesus, and give my life to him. For what point is there to living a life without the satisfaction of knowing that I might be able to love my God as he has loved me. This is why I believe, and this is why I am who I am; lead me not into temptation but deliver me from evil. For yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever. Amen.

-David

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

life

its been 6 weeks since my last post, it is finally cooling down around here, and I am pledge class president of my fraternity. Life is pretty much crazy, but it is good. more later.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

College

It is going, It is only the 4th day but I think that I am doing all right. I have armenian studies, which is a very interesting and pretty awesome course. I also have History of latin american republics which is history course that pretty much covers all that I have been studying for a year. I have a nutrition class that will just make my dietary habits more strict. I have a math class that seems more like an economics class than a math class. I finally have a criticial thinking class that will probobly challenge some of my beliefs. I will work hard to keep who I am in college, while learning and growing as much as I can.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

what is life?

Life is love, and Love is infalible yet a complete mess at the same time. I wish that I could feel that passion that I did so long ago, there was a time in my life when I had a girlfriend who would kiss me when we fought and when we didnt, In the rain and in the sun, when we were happy or mad, or just when I needed someone. I don't think it was the love that people dream about, but it was certainly some kind of love. The kind where they understand you and feel how you do, and you can hold them and it makes the world stop and life is amazing. I just miss it sometimes, but I am ready for something new; even if it isn't the same.

- David

Monday, August 3, 2009

I feel so burnt out.

It gets this way sometimes, when you just feel burnt out. It is like I can't talk to god, or anyone. I just need to get out of this house and go to do things in the world. That wont solve the problem, but it may help me to find God more easily and ask him to work in my life.

-David

Sunday, July 19, 2009

A treaties on being 18

Once again, I find myself in the shadows of doubt and pain. That would be quite sad if it was true; I am actually doing alright haha. I wish the summer was over, because I miss working and doing things every day; but life goes on at its own pace and its not for us to choose. I love you guys thank you for reading, even if you are half a world away. I think that it is time for me to sit down and think about something that really affects me and to write about it. Really write about it this time and not give up just because I dont like where the story is going, but see the action all the way through to the end.

-David.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

List for my Birthday dinner.

Cody:yes
Kyle:yes
Nathan:yes
Little mike
Ben:yes
Chloe:yes
Amanda
Bob:yes
Esa:yes
Georgia:yes
Kaitlyn:yes
Kamalei
Kate:yes
Laura:yes
Lauren:yes
Neil:yes
Ryan
Sara:yes
Anna:yes
Sidra
tanner:yes
tori
veronica:yes
mico
adrian:yes