Im in new york!

Whats going on? well a lot of stuff, but I will have to write more about it later.  right now I am busy.... ttyl.

-David.

Hmmmm its been a while the internet

So update on my life...

In february I finished Acadec regionals, then went on to state in march where my score did go down but who cares about that? It wasn't really about scores at the state level, It was about the adventure of which there was tons. At one point, I picked up a girl at the dance. She was cute but I'm kind of glad oliver kicked her out of the room when he did, because she was kind of annoying, and her friend was also kind of annoying. We went to old sac, and saw a master sword but didnt get it or much of anything except some good candy and movie posters there. I got a Rocky Horror poster which is pretty damn awesome and I hope will go in my new room once we move to wherever we are moving. There was once a time when we were in the van with Oliver driving back to The 'No and I was in a gas station looking for peach rings, of which there were none, and oliver drives by when I was walking out and Sami with his pants tied around his head and leaning half out the window makes a gun shooting noise, like tatatatatata, and Cody has the door open yelling "Get in the fucking car!" and they drive by to the other side of the parking lot, it was pretty funny. The best part was these old white women in a car to my right were ducking down frightened as all get out. I got a bronze in social science, and got to meet some new people and be a part of bullard history, so all in all, I think it was a winning memory. 

Band; Winter drums ended with a 5th place as a group, and a 10th place on my solo. It was a good experience and I will miss my pit a lot next year. Fresno state doesn't offer me any consolation for leaving bullard, and central should be alright for teaching next year. I hope that I can work on my skills enough to get them up to Vanguard standards, and I hope that I can do VIP as well. This is my time because I don't have much time. Vanguard is kind of my white whale, and I will capture it. It is amazing to be a part of a group that means so much, and where everyone is giving their all. No one who just does a highschool or college group will get that, because there isnt that push in those group levels. I tried to make the kids understand what it was like, but you cant push everyone and I had to give up. I hope that those who have potential will push themselves to be amazing. 

School in general is comming to an end, I have finish my only ap and I hope that I pass stats. I thing that once school is over my life will be very awesome with lots of hanging out and possibly a girl at some point. Amanda and I aren't planning on going out, and we are good friends. I wouldnt changing this for the world. We went to prom together, twice. It was extremely fun and an adventure. She is definatly a good dancer, very provocative. I really need to get over this whole liking her thing. It is kind of a self harm situation, that whole liking someone when you shouldn't. I don't know, She is pretty great, but it just isn't meant to be I guess. I hope that I do find someone who will accept me even though I am kind of "damaged goods", which I know is retarded and that the only person I need to forgive me does, but I think its gonna follow me for a long time.  I want to find a girl who loves me, but I think that if it isn't meant to be that God knows best. I hope that after I get my initial degree I can either go on to do something else, or go into the peace corps or on a mission and eventually get my doctorate so I can teach university. 

My walk with God has been getting better, despite not really going to church anymore. I need to start going again, but it is hard to get back into the swing. I've been reading a lot of C.S. Lewis and getting more acquatinted with God through prayer and just life. I think that God has a huge plan for me, and that I have been running for too long even though I am only 17. I hope that he brings me love, and a family but its not my place to decide what my life will be, my choice is to follow him, so there isn't much left to choose. Screwtape Letters was a very inciteful book because it kind of explained what demons are doing in our lives, and what they want and who God is. It helped me a lot with some of the stuff that I needed to see in my own life. I have to overcome a lot of demons within myself so that I will be a better person, God will help me with that but prayer would be nice, thanks. I hope that my life will be more complete with God taking a more active roll in it.

My eye might be infected, which kind of stinks, more on that later though.