College

It is going, It is only the 4th day but I think that I am doing all right. I have armenian studies, which is a very interesting and pretty awesome course. I also have History of latin american republics which is history course that pretty much covers all that I have been studying for a year. I have a nutrition class that will just make my dietary habits more strict. I have a math class that seems more like an economics class than a math class. I finally have a criticial thinking class that will probobly challenge some of my beliefs. I will work hard to keep who I am in college, while learning and growing as much as I can.

what is life?

Life is love, and Love is infalible yet a complete mess at the same time. I wish that I could feel that passion that I did so long ago, there was a time in my life when I had a girlfriend who would kiss me when we fought and when we didnt, In the rain and in the sun, when we were happy or mad, or just when I needed someone. I don't think it was the love that people dream about, but it was certainly some kind of love. The kind where they understand you and feel how you do, and you can hold them and it makes the world stop and life is amazing. I just miss it sometimes, but I am ready for something new; even if it isn't the same.

- David

I feel so burnt out.

It gets this way sometimes, when you just feel burnt out. It is like I can't talk to god, or anyone. I just need to get out of this house and go to do things in the world. That wont solve the problem, but it may help me to find God more easily and ask him to work in my life.

-David

A treaties on being 18

Once again, I find myself in the shadows of doubt and pain. That would be quite sad if it was true; I am actually doing alright haha. I wish the summer was over, because I miss working and doing things every day; but life goes on at its own pace and its not for us to choose. I love you guys thank you for reading, even if you are half a world away. I think that it is time for me to sit down and think about something that really affects me and to write about it. Really write about it this time and not give up just because I dont like where the story is going, but see the action all the way through to the end.

-David.

List for my Birthday dinner.

Cody:yes

Kyle:yes

Nathan:yes

Little mike

Ben:yes

Chloe:yes

Amanda

Bob:yes

Esa:yes

Georgia:yes

Kaitlyn:yes

Kamalei

Kate:yes

Laura:yes

Lauren:yes

Neil:yes

Ryan

Sara:yes

Anna:yes

Sidra

tanner:yes

tori

veronica:yes

mico

adrian:yes

Is it weird...

That God doesn't answer my prayers in words? I know he hears them, and I know he sends me messages and has plans, but he has never actually said anything to me in words. I know he has put ideas in my head and feelings in my heart, but nothing seems as concrete as a voice talking to me. Am I different?

-David.

well well well here we are.

I find myself not feeling completely up to snuff yet again! I am reading the first of the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyers. It isn't as completely trite as everyone has told me, but it is no where near what I would call amazing liturature. Bella and Edward do not have a romance that I would ever want or could ever hope to find - I am not perfect, A girl I find will never be perfect, our relationship will take work and a whole lot of God but I'm ok with that. Charlie and Sam, Nick and Shenni, and Francis and Margie those are the couples that have problems, but they either work out or don't in the end. Couples that are real, they have problems and they try to work them out. What fun is it to be with someone who is perfect? where is the adventure in that? oh yeah he is a vampire big deal, I don't think that I would want to find love with one of the handful of unhuman undead beings on earth! I want a girl, who loves god, and is confident with herself. I know she is out there, and I am going to look for her. I hope that she is looking for me too. Twilight isn't my love story, and I hope that the people who read it don't count on the fact that their "Edward" is ever going to find them, news is in and the top story is that he doesn't exist. sorry, no rewrites on this one.

well I'm tired, night.

-David