So its been a crazy week.

I havent been on the internet for a whole week, school week at least. This is an amazing thing to most of my friends, but beeing off for a week is awesomely insane. I have been studying my butt off this week, rewriting packets and I hope that it makes my score amazing. Acadec is in its final stretch before regionals, and band is just starting. Winter drums seems like its going to be amazing. So lets get this shit going! My life is about to start.

LIfe goes by so fast.

There are some things that you just realize you can't do, and others that you realize you wish you had. Regret; it is such an ugly and terrible word. I hate it, living with regret is never good. I will probobly live with some regret from things that i didnt do now, or would have done now. damn.

Just walk away.

People say things that hurt a lot, maybe once a in a while, or twice a week, or every single day. But when a friend says something that hurts, its hard to do this, its hard to just walk away. Who knows if youre gonna be alright, and who knows if shit will be ok. It all depends on who your friend is, and what you guys have been doing forever. Sometimes small things stick and mess up friendships, sometimes lives are never the same. Somtimes theyre fine. When you get in a fight with someone and it hurts so bad, what if you could just delete them out of your life? you never see them daily, and you never see them otherwise, the only other time you see them is when you arrange for it. you could just delete them from your social web sites, cancel your subscription to their lives, delete them out of your phone, delete all the pictures of them around you, cancel what you dont want to see, but would that make it better? WHo knows what will make the future better, but burning bridges is never a good idea, so deleting things from a good friend, is a bad idea. stream of consciousness.

-david.

so christmas is comming up?

What have you been up to? EHHH? haha I love this time of year, except for the sniffles...SNiffle sniffle. Alright, so I am reading this book called the kite runner, for all of you who do not know this book is not about the war, at least not in whole. It is instead about a boy who goes through life wishing that he had his fathers attention, this is a pretty cliche thing, but where this book takes that boy is not ordinary. The bounds at which this boy will go to to win over his father's affections are terrible, I came close to vomiting one time. All in all it is an alright book.
on another note, Hanukka starts today, so wish your Jewish friends a nice shalom, and christmas comes on the 25th so be happy for your chirstian friends, it is a new year and a new time to be full of Christ's love. Also after that comes kwannza which will be amazing for all of those spiritualists of African origins. Overall the season is about giving, remembering, and contemplating. So as the year comes to an end, and a new one begins, just remember to take time to love your life, and to make a positive impression on the lives around you.

go in peace, David.

so formal and saturday...

Yesterday was amazing, I danced with 6 different people and just had an amazing time. Today I will take it easy, read, and memorize some stuff and just do some hw. I asked a girl to go out next friday, and I am excited because I havent actually been on a date in a long time. By date I mean an actual date; one where you arent going out but are just friends who are getting to know each other better. I love life right now, too bad I missed church, but its ok I will make it back soon and keep going, I just need to get that niche back in my life. Until that time I will just have to carry the church in my heart and pray. I got accepted to college, and I am so excited. dwisar@csufresno.edu is my email. Im gonna go now. bye.

-David.

Im tired, but i shall continue.

life can be tiring at time, in fact its tiring all of the time. I shall continue on, in hopes of getting what i want to get done. I have 4 badges left to do, and one project. I have 4,000 points to achieve in acadec, and i have a drumline/pit to teach at tenya. I have a drum corps to get into, and friendships to mend. I am not hurt, I am actually doing well. I am going back to church tomorrow, to get back with the lord, because I miss his time, and the time of his children in my life. I will be completely there sometime, for now, im spread thin, but that will work out. Everything will be ok.

-David

last night was like a stolen kiss.

fast and uncalled for, but at the same time, something else entirely. I liked that feeling, seeing someone I care about, comfortable enough to sleep, to sleep peacefully whilst i was driving. it was nice. I think I shall go back to church this week. Despite what might come to me, it isnt about me, its about him. Im tired of being afraid, or feeling like a jerk. Im not, I was well in my rights. Despite the bickering, and the tantrums, the hitting me, the constant barage of insults that eventually lead to my self hatred. I still wanted to be her friend. I cared about her. still do, but im letting it go. Abusive relationships are someting that both parties can be a part of. Im glad to say the abuse in this last one, was all one sided. If you put yourself out enough to get hit, you always will. Someone once told me, "you dont sing well, but when you sing, it is the only thing i want to hear." someone else once told me, "I hate when you sing, I hate your voice." last night I was told, "I love your voice." comming from this person that means a lot, so I think i will keep my song, continue to voice it loud, and remember what it is like to fall in love, but this time gaurd myself from being taken without given anything in return. I never wanted what she had to give, 4 times it was offered, 4 times rejected. Too bad I took the fruit, it lost me my place in the garden.